the quiet

sometimes
i find a place
where i delve in so quietly
no thoughts
no worries
just peace
calm
serene
and then
something snaps me out of it
like a voice is saying
what are you doing? why aren't you worrying? look at all the thoughts you're neglecting!
it's as if the calm frightens me

gentleness

there hasn't been much of this lately
not from you, sweet j
you've been nothing *but* gentle
when i know you've wanted to bean me
lol
but a lack of gentleness with myself
i read recently on someone else's blog
and i wish i knew how to link it in the word blog
about inviting gentleness by being honest about fragility
and i thought about how tough i am on myself
today i took a personality quiz
for a job thing
and one of teh questions was essentially
how much do you beat yourself up over mistakes?
i do it all the time
poor.little.lemon
it's time to let gentleness in
can you do that?
can you let it flow?
can you hold yourself tenderly?
xo lemony one